I'm a woman of Earth, servant of the heart, goddess of love.  My early childhood sexual extrainitiation has both opened my sensual feminine nature and resulted in traumatic consequences. My life has been a dance of light and dark, pleasure and pain, a treacherous journey to untangle the puzzle of why I've been creating realities that hurt, a strive to understand my self.

 

Tantra has came to me before I knew its beautiful sanskrit word (Tanoti - to expand + Trayati - to liberate). When I 'officially' found it it felt like slipping into and old, comfortable outfit, recovering and completing memories of the past.  I know I have  been on this path many lifetimes (if you are open to that concept - whether we reincarnate or not does not really matter, our ultimate naked essence is pure consciousness and that has been around for billions of years - and so have you always existed in many forms...).

 

Tantra has resurrected the awareness of sacredness of sexual energy and its importance in healing and spiritual awakening, as the creative force of life itself.  It is through our awakened sexuality we can experience the profound fullness of life!  Yes, Tantra is more than that, but as a woman I can say that it was through the gifts of She, my awakened sexuality that I have come to realize my divinity. Not through a sitting meditation, but through movement, expanded pleasure and Tantric orgasms (magnitude of which would not be possible without practices cultivating the stillness of my mind and the the energies of my body), and through being loved by a man of a great integrity.

 

Realizing one's divinity inevitably brings one more down to earth: The more divine I perceive myself the more deeply, ordinary human I become. The higher I rise, the lower I fall.  My realizations have shown me heaven but not released me from the experience of pain. I continue to carry the suffering of my limited personality. I continue to  feel pain of  this bodymind, of those around me, pain of fellow beings, pain of the world. Love is the answer, only unconditional love can transform pain. I know my primary purpose is to love, to serve as love, to serve as She.

 

           The calling of my guidance points in two directions: One is to heal, to help fellow human beings to                            release self-limiting patterning and hurts of the past using the gifts of She. The other is to assist in                            awakening, elevating  human consciousness and the ability to experience the profound fullness of life,                    using the gifts of She.  Through my service I continue to remember my true essence, recognize god in                      everyone and everything, and find deep fulfillment.

 

            I feel blessed to be alive and continue to live in awe, give gratitude to all there is, to all that I am.

 

                                                       Love,

                                                    Shakti*